Gregor Jensen – My name

14Apr07

My name is Jensen. It is not, however, Gregor. I stole that name from a character from one of my favorite books: “The Metamorphosis” by Franz Kafka.

The very first sentence of the books is: “When Gregor Samsa woke up one morning from unsettling dreams,  he found himself changed in his bed into a monstrous vermin.” The book is brilliant. Kafka one of my absolute favorite authors, and as far as i know, only one opening sentence beats this one : “Call me Ishmael” -from Moby Dick.

I suppose I´ll to make a long story short….

I have lived a life in cyberspace on various sites as Gregor Samsa. It has been an escape for me, a good name to hide behind. It tends to keep people at a distance, and it holds a certain aura of intelligence that I love.

If you have MS they say you can wake up tommorow and not be able to move your legs. Thats a physical metamorphosis. Learning to live with this insecurity that enters your life was, for me a psychological metamorphosis.

A few years ago my father died (may he rest in peace). Simultaneously my girlfriend and I broke up. I lost my famlily, home and a language (I live in Spain a the time, and lived my entire life in spanish). I moved to Copenhagen and was in serious trouble. That to was a metamorphosis.

Now, as much in my life has changed and have reclaimed my life and joy in many ways I still have some way to go. I hope this Blog can be a scene for another metamorphosis, in which i become whole in ways I haven’t been in years.

In the end Gregor Jensen will exist, and another transformation will have taken place. If it happens, it happens through hard work and the help of friends. May this blog help me find people who share my interest. May we all enjoy and learn.

Gregor

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